MUSIC | FIRST SOLO PROJECT
BASTARD
On April 22nd 2026, I released my first solo music project outside of dimebagcrew. DBDroh and I both released our own solo albums around the same time. It was an awesome coincidence, be sure to check us out on Spotify or wherever you get music.
It was a weird time in life, but I found myself broke and picking up these pieces and with it came a lot of writing and processing. From love lost, lessons learned & toxic situationships to starved and looking for scraps dodging homelessness. Life will always throw these things that make us feel out of ourselves, but it also forces us to get back to ourselves. And in that, we see ourselves better. I like to think at least. I hate to admit but I was fucking around with Suno to produce the beats, I just enjoyed what it was giving me, and sometimes I didn't even have a choice. I would just suddenly have an entire song written, and not by the AI, by me feeling so inspired by the beats. I won't deny my creativity when it strikes. We can all grow roses, but when that lil bihh pops up through the concrete, when the beauty still flows through the hard times... you have to honor that in whatever form it presents itself. And I can admit that, I have built these walls within myself out of protection but over time they hold me back from a lot of social engagement or exploration, so that compounded with financial struggle just didn't make reaching out to people like producers or whatever seem like a feasible thing.
When you are engulfed in scarcity as I have been, it feels almost like a disease that you don't want to infect anybody else with. So when I am there, I do my best to put my head down and create. I have wanted to make my own album for like 15 years now, it is crazy how much life can get in the way, or we hold ourselves back from doing or creating the things we wish. Maybe it is about getting to that version of ourselves that can actually do it? Idk. But I do know that I have to create, or whatever they did just swells up inside, and becomes the monster they always said we would be. Not today motherfucker. <3
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